Love Never Fails.

hi guys. been feeling a little scared about our family's future. See we have this problem thats mstly only new home owners have, a mortgage. Its really hard for us to save up and move forward in life when you have this payment to make. So im going to say this as my myccm internet user will. If anything should happen like if we end up losing the house and being on the street, I want to say thank you for being my friends on here. I don't like the outlook of our lives here so if anything does, I… Continue

Well that time is here again. Seems like years go real fast. Well this year is going to be rough in a way. Work is getting slow down there where my mom and dad work. So of course dad gets laid off cause hes a temp. Mom isnt sure if she can get a full week now and we need our furnace worked on. But we think it needs the oil line replaced. I pray to God its our FINAL solution. If not a plentiful Christmas, A WARM HOUSE! Last year was rough. I was the only one who really got us our Xmas gifts. B… Continue

For a while now I have been hiding. Not wanting to do anything being antisocial. But most of all I have been hiding from God. For the past month and a half I have not gone to church. Now dont get me wrong. I know you dont need to go to church to be with God. But going there is what God sees as a worthy sacrifice to his people. See, being at home you tend to get distracted by many things. In church, you know why you are there. You are there to focus only on him. I havent been giving my weekly sac… Continue

I need to talk about something. I havent been to church the past five Sundays. Why? I can handle it now. I love God and everything he has done but for the past month I have been struggling SO bad. I feel bad going to church when I cant focus on him. ANd the more I struggle the more going to church and praising Him seems like a chore. And when it feels like this I dont wanna go. I ask God to help me but He doesnt seem to give me the answer. I have a few friends at church that check on me and ask… Continue

Well its offical. The Martin household is wireless. Yeah decided to do this ever since I got my laptop. happy about it too. It was a bit costly but worth it. Mom has also got the internet and cant keep her off the pc lol. Its great to be this way. Now I have privacy a little bit. Not to do anything bad or anything ;). Just wanted it. Its great to be wireless. And my aunt in Kentucky couldnt be happier. We spent almost an hour chatting online me, my mom and my aunt. Its fun. Later.

In these hard times people do almost about anything to keep their cool, insanity and especially hope. But for some who dont have to worry may not completely get it. Its hard to feel that someone is out there whether you are a non believer or even a full blown christian. But think about this. FOr those hunting for a job or just lost one, think about why this may have happen, spiritually. Truth is we get SO caught up in the fast pace of work that we dont see what truely matters. If you really some… Continue

Wow, im suprised! Never thought I'd see this, but could it be true? Is our country starting to dwell in the paths of Hell? If you have been watching the news lately it seems like every day there is more bad news. Most of the time it would let up but its not. Last night I found out our country is over a trillion dollars in debt. And whats worse is that others countries are suffering more too. In one country they shut off the gas cause of a disagreement with two companies that provide it. All of t… Continue

Its a new year. Most of us are planning to do something for it. Making a resolution on God knows what. I made mine: to get healthy teeth. They arent and I would like to get them in top shape. DOnt need to buy anything cause I dont have the room. WHen I get my place I will probably buy stuff for it all the time lol. But what is on my mind is when I will finally be cured of my illness. Its been 5 years now and I am still suffering. They say in the name of Chirst you are healed but I still suffer w… Continue

Oh Christmas time......great to see it again. More importantly, can't wait to open gifts :P. But seriously must remember its Jesus' birthday and celebrate with honor and care. I should make a cake for the occasion, but a nice prayer to him should be nice. But I wouldve been a lot worse if it werent for him. I've been struggling the past few weeks with my illness. Not taking my meds and having episodes. It was real torture. Not sure if I could celebrate the holidays. Im still in some bit of disco… Continue

I remembered a time when I first started going to church in 2004. They were having this wildfire youth thing there on a week night. I remembered the kids played a song Trade My Sorrows. I remembered hearing the lyrics trading in my sickness. I was really hoping he could, during that, take it all away. I was to a point I couldnt stay in one place for real long and jittery. It was the first time I ever went to one of their youth groups. I heard the song again in church today. It made me realize… Continue